INSECURE

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                 As I am writing this naskia masikio inakuwa moto ju ya hasira. Self control inashikiliwa na just a thread, nisikute that individual na panga niifanye shwaa shwaa shwaa, ka Samurai Jack. Najua mnashangaa mbona your storyteller amejaa ngori hivi, a certain individual, tuliagree nimpigie ma one two, nikatimiza, sasa kumpigia naskia mteja wa nambari uliyopiga hapatikani kwa sasa!   I'm livid, nashangaa rada hapa ni gani? In my mind, najaribu kuangalia mbona the individual yuko mteja from all perceptives, labda simu imezima, or imepotea, or pahali yuko hakuna network ndio call haingii, lakini the funny thing is there's a voice at the back of my head going hapanaaa! hapanaaa! hapanaa!  Anyway, I give the individual time, perhaps they will get back to me, explain to me why my calls to them were not going through you know? Naenda napiga shughuli mbili tatu, try to keep my mind occupied. Kuna this fear in another part o...

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Cleaned up real nice, 

wacha tu! 

Ungeniona ningekukunywa like those thirsty people kwa Ads za Sprite, au kama vampire, wenye sisi huona kwa movies, that is if, wewe ni dame. 



Nikapiga perfume yangu vizuri, when you smell nice, confidence hukuwa mia kwa mia. Mimi huyo, najisikia, ego iko overflowing, naenda hadi stage, nipande mat, niingie tao. 


Nikiwa kwa njia naona venye siku itakuwa tu vibes on vibes with someone's daughter. On the previous day, tulikuwa tume elewana tunapatana saa nne. Nilikuwa hapo by 9, hapo I&M towers. An understocked tuskys, not far away from my position, nikapatana na madam anauza maua akasema 


“si ushukurie mpens hisi mauwa, 

atazipenda”


Nikasema why not? Mimi bazenga niko hapo na maua waiting for the princess Hadija. So ikafika 10 nikasema wacha ningoje kidogo, 11 ikafika nikiwa nimesimama hapo kama mti, najiconsole tu, anakuja, ni jam imemchelewisha. Hapo naona most people wanapita wakiwa two by two kama enzi za Noah time ya kupanda Ark, nashangaa kwani Hadija wangu yuko wapi. 


12 kufika, huyo madam wa maua akauliza kama niko sure anakuja. For a whole 3 hours patiently waiting for her, I was hopeful she would show up. But after that question my heart sank. 


Enyewe words have power. 


From 12 to 1pm, it felt like 3 hrs wasee. It had now dawned on me that my hand was the water less a vase for the flowers. Nikaanza safari ya kurudi kwangu, jua ilikuwa imewaka kuwaka inakaa orange, but venye nilikuwa nasikia, wacha tu. The cold chill down my spine, ilikuwa inafanya natetemeka tu. 


If Uber was there, 

hiyo siku singepanda mat. 


Ladies and gentlemen that was the making of a monster. Hadijah mahali uko shindweee. These moments are those that break a man into unrepairable versions of themselves. Thank God for phones, smart phones in particular. Nikifiria what people do for and when they are in love, naskia kucheka. 


Jamani nimeteseka hii Nairobi. Wacha nimalizie hapo, naskia ni kama machos itatoka yenyewe, at anytime. 

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